No Pain, No Gain (emo-emohan mode)

last saturday, we had an activity where we would write in two separate metacards the thing that gives us pain and pleasure.

in the pleasure sheet, i wrote "movies". it's up to you to guess what kind of movies i watch. *smiley*.

in the pain sheet, i wrote "neglect".

nah, i'm not referring to my family and my friends.

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it's been 20 days since we last texted with each other.

had i not bothered to check up on him last november 1, i doubt if he would remember me.

yes, i feel neglected.

but the thing is, i have no right to feel this way.

to him, i'm just a friend who's just miles away.

a friend who only existed when he's bored.

just a friend.

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can't he just send me a text message once?

a single text message would be fine, if he's really busy living his life.

a single text message from him would be fine, to ease my worries… and pain.

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i'm resisting the urge to be the first one to text "hi" to him.

i've succeeded for twenty days, wew.

it's not easy.

i feel like a drug addict experiencing withdrawal symptoms.

little did i know that he would cause me pain.

damn, i'm feeling down again.

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ate pam once said that "in every cloud, there is a silver lining".

i wish i could see it on my cloud soon.