No Pain, No Gain (emo-emohan mode)

November 20, 2007

last saturday, we had an activity where we would write in two separate metacards the thing that gives us pain and pleasure.

in the pleasure sheet, i wrote "movies". it's up to you to guess what kind of movies i watch. *smiley*.

in the pain sheet, i wrote "neglect".

nah, i'm not referring to my family and my friends.

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it's been 20 days since we last texted with each other.

had i not bothered to check up on him last november 1, i doubt if he would remember me.

yes, i feel neglected.

but the thing is, i have no right to feel this way.

to him, i'm just a friend who's just miles away.

a friend who only existed when he's bored.

just a friend.

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can't he just send me a text message once?

a single text message would be fine, if he's really busy living his life.

a single text message from him would be fine, to ease my worries… and pain.

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i'm resisting the urge to be the first one to text "hi" to him.

i've succeeded for twenty days, wew.

it's not easy.

i feel like a drug addict experiencing withdrawal symptoms.

little did i know that he would cause me pain.

damn, i'm feeling down again.

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ate pam once said that "in every cloud, there is a silver lining".

i wish i could see it on my cloud soon.